i dont know where to begin, i dont even know what to say. at first i just couldnt understand what happened. then i blamed myself for it all. thinking that maybe if i accepted my own mistakes and apologized you would change your mind. but the truth is you could never force someone to love you or stay. the most hurtful part of all this is that you could look me in the eyes and tell me you never loved me. that you could take back every word and moment we shared, that you could have lied for a year about what you really wanted and felt. i cant believe it. i dont know who you are now. i dont know who i fell in love with but it wasnt this person you have now become. everyone keeps saying im better off without you, that you were never good enuff, that she is not better then me, and although i know all this is true, i cant help but feel this way. why couldnt i make you as happy as she does now? what does she do that makes you stay ? you told me that you loved me and then you took it all back. how could you lie ? i felt safe with you, i felt for the first time like someone loved me through everything i was through everything that made me who i was, and now im left her ealone, lonelier then ever, and no one will love me. i just wanna hold you i jus wanna cry i just wanna tell you that i love you and hope you would take all this bak